HIDUP

Bila kehidupan kau nampak semuanya sempurna.
Allah akan bagi kau rasa yang kau diduga.
25tahun hidup sejak dari dlm perot lagi..
Kau Allah bagi limpah kasih sayang.
ade lenggang perot segala.
kau ramai orang sayang.
kau pon rasa kan..
tapi bila ade 25org je dlam dunia ni benci kau.
kau hangen lak..
bila Allah cipta kan kau cukup segalanya..
tuptup ade satu perkara
Allah tarik kejap.
kau terus rse nak jatuh
eyh
sabar lily fadhilah..
ALLAH
dugaan ape kau bagi ni

Jangan sampai satu tahap
dunia hilang senyum aku,
dunia rindu suara aku.

2days before

Semlm masa tgh iron bju nak g opis..papa ckp- lepas ni dia jd hak org lain dah.bukan hak mamapapa.
Aku.nanges.stop iron bju.pkai bju yg xyah iron.ckp-kalong hak milik mamapapa.hak milik allah smpai.mati.sape rampas kalong.kalong bakar rumah dia..
Diam semua.
Kalau lah semua tahu.
Ape yg aku rasa.
Selamat malam cinta

5days before

Kalau la semua orang paham aku.
Orang nampak kita relax and cool.
Macam2 benda da jadi.
Sampai tahap da give up.
Pada aku xperlu.
Aku tahu urus hal aku.

Aku bru nak start..baru belajar tateh.
tetibe ade dengar bunyi sumbang.
kalau kau xnak support xpe.
xyah support and xpayah tanya langsung!
aku xsuka.
Kalau hari ni baru bukak kedai.
logik ke kalau kau tanya dah ade orang beli ke.
aku berniaga dari dajah 2.
tingkatan 2 24ribu ku aku pandang sebelah mata.
jalan usung porchbag bawah dada.
time tu aku ade mamapapa je.
so kalau xsuka bagi aku pada mamapapa.
jangan sesekali amek aku.

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AKU G CLUBBING KE?

28 days before.

Makin dekat dengan hari kejadian..sebenarnye aku takut sangat.

Sometime hati ni rasa sayu, air mata menitis tibe-tibe..

xtaw la ape yang sedih sangat..tapi aku sebenarnye takut.

aku ready nak kawin tapi aku xready nak tinggal mamapapa..

ye family org xsama dgn family kita.

buruk family kita pon tetap jugak family kita terbaik..

bukan semua family hv an awesome family like me...

sedih...huaaaa

nak masuk family org..

kita langkah kaki kanan

tapi orang nampak ke kita ni langkah kanan

ke orang nampak kita bawak taik..

I have a lot of things to do..yea admit it as a bride to be and m the eldest one..a lot lot lot of things that i need to handle and settle by my self. Yea people may said that i can ask for their help but i need to think and plan what we should, the pros and cons. Is it acceptable to give this or not. Is it suitable and how about the cost. Furthermore, if i just a b2b its ok, but m a student that have a lot of assignment and thesis need to be done. Need to go to the class, have a discussion with a group members (but i skip that because of too busy). Class will be held on weekend every month! IF i want to complete my master with in two years. hurm!sigh -.-'! And if i don't have a class, u think that i can rest, have a time to shopping, spa, hangout this and that??? NO WAY! As a freelancer make up artist there have no weekend for me. Weekdays?? M a hr person. So many things that I need to settle include hear for staff's problem. They will share with me their problems and i need to give them an advise even i don't ever face that kind of problems before. have a counselling session with them and do all the hr do. And i just wondering about my situation, with who i can share my problems? I have a lot but with who? at the end i just keep it myself and cry as i can. No one will put their leg to my shoes because i know how suffer m i and only me knows hoe to handle my situations. Talking about problems, hurm..how can i start??? Keep like hell and suddenly it will become worst because of the shit happen continuously. Feel like i need someone to talk and i need my bff. Right Now!

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